Monday, January 02, 2006

Déjà Vu (not really)


There’s that Déjà Vu feeling again! Wasn’t I just here a few (days?? Weeks?? Months??!!) ago? I look around the place and I know for certain I’ve been here before. There’s a note lying on the floor, I pick it up.... I will go to the gym more.... Hmmm, where have I heard those words before?! What’s that? There’s something written on the right corner, I look more closely....January 1st 2005...I recognize that hand writing but can’t quite place it. What is this? The twilight zone? It must be because everything seems so strange. There’s something on the table…..it’s a picture! Maybe that’ll answer some of my questions. I pick it up, it’s dusty and faded like a distant memory yet the colors are still bright and alive. The paper feels strangely warm as I gently brush the dust off it’s surface. There’s a face on it. It’s a young boy/man with a stoic face, kind eyes and bright smile that I feel strangely drawn to. Who is this boy/man? I turn the picture over...good luck bro, keep it real...and suddenly I feel great sadness. Is this me? I look around the room and spot the mirror on the wall. The face looking back at me is not the same in the picture but there’s some familiarity. I must know who this boy/man is. I tuck the picture in my left breast pocket (right above my heart) in case the memory comes back to me. There’s a vase on the table with dry, wilted flowers in it. I move closer and realize that all the flowers have turned brown from age (they were once half a dozen yellow roses, some pink posies and a few red carnations). There’s a card stuck in between the stems...Happy Valentines Mom... I open it ...I love you, Feb 14th 2002...and notice a tear drop stain on it. Does that date mean that’s the last time this person got a valentine’s wish? I hope not because that would really be sad. There’s a handmade titanium fountain pen with a gold nib and some sort or engraving on it next to the vase. I pick it up...Happy Birthday Dad, November__ ...and realize the engraving wasn’t finished. What kind of person doesn’t know his/her father’s birthday? I would never be so cut off from the people I love. If this was me I would stay close to all the people important to me, this is inexcusable! I want to leave this place, it’s full of cold memories and sadness. I notice the bottle of Burberry Brit on the night stand. What a coincidence, that’s the same (make that only) cologne I use. Hmmm, I have a shirt just like the one lying on the bed. Actually I have that same bed! What is this some kind of joke? What’s today April fools? I look down at my wrist to check the date but my watch is missing. WAIT! There’s my watch lying right next to the bottle of cologne! That's when I notice the sign over the bed, "SANDMAN"!

13 comments:

Msanii_XL said...

That is a dope picture...

Happy New Year man..

mutumia said...

yah--- those are some powers- seeing yourself from the outside- I always wonder what I would see and if I would like myself/ my choices. Hmmmm... On the other hand a man who waers Burberry Brit (heavenly smell that) cannot possibly have been bila Valos last year :)

Brother Jero (BJ) said...

GO TEXAS, LONGHORNS.

YOU JUST MADE MY DAY too with that picture.

Happy New Year

Prousette said...

Happy New year!
And wish you have a Valentine this year if the last one you did not ;))

Mignon said...

lol...great picture and storytelling skills :)

Poi said...

The story...it's your life..only..ummmhhh can't quite place it.

Happy New Year Sweetness, haiya howduya just get lost on me like that? re-surface or it's one of the resolutions to keep off?

Nakeel said...

Happy New year lost one...
Nice one can see you are coming out full to blog now..

sandman said...

@Msanii - Thanks dude, that was 20yrs ago (give or take). Happy new year.

@Mutumia - hehehe, you're right I wasn't. Actually I [[[[[censored]]]]] and that was how it went.

@Bj - Those longhorns! Vince is amaizing, the cowboys need a guy like that. eeeeh, brother Jero, what's with the initials! and do I really want to know!

@Prousette - Thanks, lakini the last time I was alone on valentines was primo. You know what they say about lucky lips!

@Cute angel - Thanks, see you @ LA sevens.

@Poi - Sasa wewe, you seem to know more than you should! Don't worry I never keep my resolutions LMAO!

@Nakeel - Happy new year to you too. I hope you kulad enough mbuzi for two.

Poi said...

Hhehhe whatchu mean alot than I should?

Mwana mpotevu! Please make L.A.

Stunuh Jay said...

Happy New Year!!! With lots more material to read!

Farmgal said...

Happy New Year sandman. And the picture wow!

mshairi said...

Happy New Year Sandman. Wishing you a great and healthy 2006.

nick said...

is that u in the blue dress? u know ma just kidding right..oh yeah deja vu feeling are the best